WoooOooOOooOOO angsty journal title!
Hi dA, how have you been? I hope everyone had an awesome Christmas & New Year and that you're all doing well.
This is going to be a rant/release journal so you can't say I didn't give you fair warning before you read on!
I'm going through an intense block at the moment and it's scary. It's mostly emotional - I'm in a pretty bad place and that means that my motivation is gone and my art is suffering for it, too. I'm still at uni but I'm not even close to hitting the targets I've got set for myself which is kinda distressing. I adore my course and Games Design is what I want to spend the rest of my life doing, just the way I am right now is making it pretty much impossible for me to do anything other than want to sleep and mope around because I'm too sad to do anything else. I desperately want to get back into the way I was when I could actually do things but at the moment that seems like a goal at the end of an extremely large tunnel.
We started a module this semester - Character Design. It's my absolute favourite thing to do in the world, yet because of the way I am I'm already screwing everything up and falling behind with it. I spent so much of my first year looking forward to starting this and now that it's here I can't stop myself from cocking everything up. Not good.
I feel weird writing this stuff on here, especially after being away for so long, it's just that dA is the only place I feel comfortable really writing this stuff down, I guess. I don't want to put this on my blog because I want to keep it somewhat 'professional' and I don't use any other places that really have the option to blog (other than Tumblr), so dA seems to be my default for this kinda thing.
I'll end this here to avoid going off on one and writing a mile long entry, haha. I'm sorry for filling your inbox with this crap, I just needed somewhere to put it before I go crazy.
Take care and stay awesome.